A Bitter Bean

I was looking over my 2015 calendar this weekend, remembering that during this same time last year I was “stricken.”

Remember?

I thought I had made it through this January’s germ gauntlet.  Maybe I have.  Maybe the health setback I experienced was related to something else.  Maybe it was the bright and blinding full moon that beamed through my bedroom window after midnight.  All I knew was that when Handy stopped by yesterday at around 10:30 a.m., he was surprised that I hadn’t even unlocked the front door and taken in the Sunday paper.

I texted “Use your key.”

He was also surprised to see me huddled pitifully under the blankets.

“Wow,” he said.

He set up a chair next to my bed and like a good doctor, folded his hands and asked what I’d had to eat yesterday.

“Practically nothing.  I had a small piece of leftover cornbread and my cup of coffee.  Then I went to the transfer station.  When I got back, I got my list together for the winter market.”

So far so good.

I outlined my Saturday errands.

“Then, it was past noon, so I got a shot of espresso and a local organic snack-ey tartlet thing, you know, steel-cut oats, maple syrup, and cinnamon.  It tasted like soap on the first bite, but I ate it anyway.”

Handy tilted his head sideways and asked about the coffee.

I identified the award-winning handcrafted micro-roasted coffee location.

“You don’t think it was the coffee, do you?” I asked incredulously.

Handy gave me a knowing look and reminded me of a certain cup of coffee that afflicted him once during a Lady Alone Traveler trip.

Maybe he was right.  I hated to admit it, but the hangover-like feeling I was experiencing did share some characteristics of a coffee headache.  Peeking out from under the covers, I let an accusation fly.

“It did have a bitter taste to it” I reflected.

Dr. Handy sat and listened to me chatter for another twenty minutes and then suggested I try to get up and drink a few sips of 7-Up.  I told him I would, but not right now.  Being that it was a beautiful day outside and time was marching on, Handy patted my head and bid me farewell.

Finally, at 12:30 p.m., I hauled myself out of bed and poured a small glass of soda; so far so good.  It was a beautiful day and I wondered how I could recover from the bitter bean attack in some sunshine.  My lawn chairs were in the shed and that would mean Bean boots and trudging through snow.  I settled for my mummy sleeping bag and a pillow and sat on the back steps reading until 3:00 p.m.

RecoveryThe sun felt good.  Nature’s disinfectant, so they say.  Plus some nursery food (Cream of Wheat) for dinner and it’s Monday again.

Carry on.

(Yes, the New England Patriots’ loss was a bitter bean too.)

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Brothers and Birthdays

Where does the time go?  The minutes and seconds of the “right now” when I’m racing around to write before the work clock starts ticking.  I finished my Lady Alone Traveler post for the local paper and I see there’s little time to reflect on the longer stretches of time.  The days, months, and years of our lives.

Tomorrow, my brother Jim will celebrate a birthday.

Photo Courtesy of Trader Joe's(Card by Becca Cahan, distributed and sold exclusively by Trader Joe’s.)

There are so many stories I could write but there is always the ticking of time, slipping faster and faster through the hourglass.  As F. Scott Fitzgerald wrote, “we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”

If that’s true, we’ll return to the topic of brothers and birthdays.  For now, I send my brother, my only sibling, an early and very happy wish for a wonderful birthday!

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Unholy Donuts

As you may know, in Portland, Maine they canonize donuts.  Holy, holy, holy, donuts ascend high and mighty above the lower sweets of the earth.  Early in the morning, the songs of the donut-crazed saints rise in adoration to The Holy Donut.

If you’re one of the huddled masses of pagans living outside the holy rings of hipness that is Portland, you are SOL.  You’re stuck in a food desert.

Once in a while, something rises in the distance.

Unholy Donut(Picture courtesy of Mark “Handy” Doyon.)

When you’re in a food desert, it’s probably a mirage and not the manna of holy hipsters.

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Peak January

Although this winter has been milder and we’ve had much less snow, we’ve still had a few shoveling events; we had one on Saturday.  I shoveled so much last winter you would think the pattern of clearing the driveway would be burned into my brain.  But it’s not.  What was my approach last year?  Did I shovel from the garage to the road or did I start at the road and work my way towards the garage?

I don’t remember.

The Driveway

I was looking over my blog posts from January, 2015, trying to remember what I was thinking and feeling at this time last year.  I had a date with a man to discuss draperies and then I got the flu.

The draperies materialized, but not as quickly as I had hoped on that January day.  In retrospect, the date was a flop; I bought my fabric based on the gentleman’s recommendations, called him to let him know the work could begin and then…nothing.

He was always “out on an installation” and he never returned my calls.

After being jilted last January, I did find a company who designed and created custom draperies for me as well as some cordless shades.  The whole project took much longer than I had anticipated, but I’m pleased with the results.

I’m not sure why I brought this up today, except I woke disheveled from a bad dream.  In the dream, Jaxon and I had been going somewhere on a luxury ocean liner and I lost my credit card.  Dreams are funny like that.  They seem so real upon waking and it takes time to shake them off.  So since today is a work holiday, I’m spending some time in reflection and introspection about mundane things like draperies and blinds and being dumped.

Shaking it off.

Not for long, though, because as I open the blinds and push the draperies aside, I see it’s snowing again this morning.  I’ve had my coffee and I’ve switched over to “World Peace” herb tea from Mornings in Paris, a quaint coffee shop in Kennebunkport.  It’s the last day of the last three-day weekend until Memorial Day.  It’s a good day for putting away the remaining holiday things and straightening the ship of life for the sprint into spring.

Only 62 more days.

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It Smelled Like Teen Spirit

Last Friday, I took a trip down memory lane with a post called “The Beautiful Unfinished Bridge.”  I know I said I would tell you about the psychic session I had in 1999, but I’ve changed my mind.  I’m going to postpone it until next week and instead steer blog readers to my recent Carnegie Library blog at the Sun Journal.  If you click on the picture, it will take you to “The B.H. Bartol Skinny.”

AndyThe post didn’t turn out exactly as I’d hoped.  Handy and I were racing against daylight to get to Freeport and take a few pictures of the Carnegie’s exterior.  Once inside, we found no interior evidence the building had once been a library.  The building reeked of teen fragrances and hypnotic music pulsed through what had once been Freeport’s intellectual hub.

Sigh…

Handy gave me the “let’s be quick” look and so we were.

The information provided to me by the current library’s director and assistant director was very helpful and I felt like I had just scratched the surface of the story.  The Freeport Historical Society was close by although it was closed by the time we finished taking pictures; on future trips, we’re going to schedule time to visit the local historical society in conjunction with the library.

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The Whitewash

There was a whitewash on Tuesday night.

Whitewash

Some of it was beautiful.

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The Poseidon Adventure

Last night was the 73rd Golden Globe Awards; I’m not covering the event here on the blog because I didn’t see any of the movies that were nominated for or won an award.  And I don’t know who Ricky Gervais is or why he’s famous.

But life can be like a movie or Tee Vee drama and this weekend might have been called Upstairs, Downstairs (which was nominated for several Golden Globes and won one in 1975.)  Handy and I were painting my office on the second floor landing of my house.  I say “Handy and I” were painting, but the truth is, Handy did all the hard work and I acted as his assistance.  If Handy said “go clean this brush, please” I ran downstairs and cleaned the brush.  Then I’d run back upstairs to deliver it.  If Handy said “we need another can of paint up here,” I’d again run downstairs, get the paint, and then run back up with the trim paint or the “Pale Straw” colored wall paint.  I was a general gopher, or Handy’s Helper.

Pale Straw

The project lasted all weekend.  It was a good weekend for staying in the house, with temperatures rising about freezing on overcast Saturday and then unbelievable torrential sideways rain and wind gusts on Sunday.  At different times during the day the house shook as the zephyr winds whipped around.

We finished at 4:00 p.m. and I started putting the office back together; Handy went to his house to make some dinner.  I walked into my first floor laundry room to start a load of towels and got hit in the forehead with a big drop of water.  Handy says rainy days like Sunday are good for finding the leaks in a house and I guess I’ve got one in my laundry room.

After a productive weekend of painting and home improvements, the small leak was unsettling but I vowed to “carry on” and drove over to Handy’s for dinner.  I showed him the pictures of the small hairline leak, told him my theories, and then asked if he thought the laundry room ceiling would collapse during the night.

“Is that what you’re worrying about?” he asked.

I admitted this was my current and worst fear.

“The ceiling will not collapse.”

Then he sang the opening line of a bad 70’s song.

“There’s got to be a morning after…”

The theme song from another Golden Globe nominated movie, The Poseidon Adventure!  I had to laugh and since laughter is the alleged best medicine, that sinking feeling in my stomach disappeared.  Plus, dinner was ready and I knew Handy would find and fix any problem.

With a hot dinner, a freshly painted office, and the promise of sunshine on the horizon, the lyrics to the song seemed about right.  Plus, the Powerball jackpot is now up to a gazillion dollars.

“Let’s keep on looking for the light.”

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The Beautiful Unfinished Bridge

Stop me if you’ve heard this one before…

I’m going to get organized.

No, really.  I mean it.  I started a few days ago, burning old paid electric bills from my house in Portland.  Jaxon says 10 years is long enough to keep those types of “important” papers.  I’ve been spending an hour a day sifting through the neatly stacked boxes of stored stuff.  In fact, I found a document titled “The Excavation,” written in 2002.  It starts like this:

An Excavation is a process of sorting through the things I’ve accumulated in my 38 years of life and have been storing haphazardly in my spare bedroom.  The process involves sorting, grouping, and storing things.  This project accomplishes my personal goal of creating home order and more space.

Oh, so bombastic!

So, let’s do the math.  I’ve apparently been at this process of excavating my papers for 13 years now.  One might imagine my upstairs rooms look like the Library of Congress.  The document gets even better, though.  In the last paragraph, I ask myself “Is this part of some bigger goal?”

Yes.  Someday I hope to move.  When I do, I would like it to be easy to move because my home is orderly.  I also think I have many materials and projects that may be useful in the event I ever have my own business or shop.

I’ll be burning “The Excavation” in the next bonfire!

Then there was this gem.

Short Hair

I had short hair once.

I asked the artist, my BFF, if I should burn it.

“HELL NO!” was her prompt and fiery response.

Then I asked her if I should keep my old journals from 2002 and earlier, full of my maudlin scribblings.

“No, you might use them for something.  You have plenty of room in that house for those things.”

The good news about all of this is that as I anticipated when I wrote “The Excavation,” I did move and I do have room for these things.  I’d just like them to be organized and curated, maybe by year?  Is that too much to ask?  Back then, it felt like some grand design for the day when I would “write the book of my life.”  Ironically, I also found an article I’d printed in 2001 by some self-help guru about “how to publish a book.”

Then there was my 1999 poem, “Beautiful Unfinished Bridge.”

I am so glad the man who inspired that poem broke up with me.  Into the burning bin it goes!

It’s Friday and I’ve got miles to go before I sleep.  Handy and I made a plan to paint my office over the weekend.  Because that’s what you do when you’re “getting organized.”  You tackle it from the inside and the outside of the problem.  I’ve got two unfinished writing assignments in my bin, too.  I know I said I wasn’t going to write much on Fridays, but I was laughing so hard at some of the things I found during yesterday’s hour of excavation, I just had to share it with my blog readers.

Seriously, you just have to laugh to keep from crying some days.

I’ll postpone any further poems and books of my life for today, but don’t forget to pop over to my Lady Alone Traveler blog at the Sun Journal for new content.

Next Friday, I think I’ll share the psychic reading I went to in December, 1999.  To be continued…

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In the Stacks

One of my blog readers tells me she goes into “hermit” mode in January.  Jaxon says “it’s the most depressing month of the year.”

Well!

The library stacks are a good place to isolate in this “most depressing month of the year.”

The StacksChin up!

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And…We’re…Off!

I took my aluminum tree down yesterday, first taking off the sparkly beads, then the vintage ornaments.  Finally, I removed the “tree branches” and placed all but one in the original brown paper tubes.  As a random “collector” of old things, my curiosity got the best of me this year.  Why hadn’t I ever researched the Aluminum Specialty Company in Manitowoc, Wisconsin before?  The tree’s storage box is stamped with the company’s name, as well as the original sale tag from Damariscotta Hardware.  Six dollars and sixty-six cents.

I could have looked up “aluminum Christmas tree” on Wikipedia.  This entry tells a lot about the nostalgic holiday artifact; probably more than the average American would need to know.  Interestingly enough, Charlie Brown is to blame for the demise of the “Evergleam” tree.

But my reverie, as I took down my tree, examined the box and searched the internet, is more about people.  What type of people worked in that aluminum factory near the banks of Lake Michigan?  Did they think the trees were beautiful or bizarre?  According to the Wikipedia article, the Aluminum Specialty Company began producing them in 1959; did it take until 1961 for them to make their way to Damariscotta, Maine?  Who had owned my little well-preserved tree?  Did it sit in the attic after it fell out of favor?  How did it make its way to Orphan Annie’s in Auburn, where I bought it in 2000 for what seemed like an outrageous price of $50.

In situations like this, taking down the tree becomes a long and drawn out affair.  The house lights will stay on through Wednesday night, which is Epiphany.  If I’m lucky, there won’t be any dramatic reworking and nostalgic contemplation; the lights will just go out.

Helen might say, “time marches on…”

Calendar

The big New Year’s news here on the blog is that I’m going to trim my blogging down by one day.  I’m not going to be blogging less, though; you’ll be able to read my weekly “Lady Alone Traveler” blogs, which I generally post on the Sun Journal’s site on Wednesday or Thursday.  I’ll use this Friday blog space to link to the “other” blog, just in case you miss it.

I’ve started research into my Carnegie library travel project and just began reading a big fat biography of Andrew.  Out of curiosity, I asked Wikipedia for a list of Carnegie libraries in Wisconsin; I was saddened to read there had once been a Carnegie library in Manitowoc, but the town outgrew the building in the mid-1960’s.  It was torn down in order to build a bigger library, oddly coincident with the aluminum Christmas tree’s peak in popularity.

I’m sure that had nothing to do with it.

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